Friday, January 26, 2007

The Quilt


As I faced my Maker at the last judgment, I knelt before the Lord along with all the other souls. Before each of us laid our lives like the squares of a quilt in many piles.
An Angel sat before each of us sewing our quilt squares together into a tapestry that is our life. But as my angel took each piece of cloth off the pile, I noticed how ragged and empty each of my squares was. They were filled with giant holes, each square was labeled with a part of my life that had been difficult, the challenges and temptations I was faced with in everyday life. I saw hardships that I endured, which were the largest holes of all. I glanced around me. Nobody else had such squares. Other than a tiny hole here and there, the other tapestries were filled with rich color and the bright hues of worldly fortune. I gazed upon my own life and was disheartened. My angel was sewing the ragged pieces of cloth together, threadbare and empty, like binding air.
Finally the time came when each life was to be displayed, held up to the light, the scrutiny of truth. The others rose, each in turn, holding up their tapestries. So filled their lives had been. My angel looked upon me, and nodded for me to rise. My gaze dropped to the ground in shame. I hadn't had all the earthly fortunes. I had love in my life, and laughter. But there had also been trials of illness, and death, and false accusations that took from me my world, as I knew it. I had to start over many times. I often struggled with the temptation to quit, only to somehow muster the strength to pick up and begin again. I spent many nights on my knees in prayer, asking for help and guidance in my life. I had often been held up to ridicule, which I endured painfully, each time offering it up to the Father in hopes that I would not melt within my skin beneath the judgmental gaze of those who unfairly judged me.
And now, I had to face the truth. My life was what it was, and I had to accept it for what it was. I rose and slowly lifted the combined squares of my life to the light. An awe-filled gasp filled the air. I gazed around at the others who stared at me with wide eyes. Then, I looked upon the tapestry before me. Light flooded the many holes, creating an image, the face of Christ. Then our Lord stood before me, with warmth and love in His eyes. He said, "Every time you gave over your life to Me, it became My life, My hardships, and My struggles. Each point of light in your life is when you stepped aside and let Me shine through, until there was more of Me than there was of you."
May all our quilts be threadbare and worn, allowing Christ to shine through.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Thankful for snow

Isaiah 55:8-13:
"For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways," declares the LORD. "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts. "For as the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return there without watering the earth and making it bear and sprout, and furnishing seed to the sower and bread to the eater; so will My word be which goes forth from My mouth; it will not return to Me empty, without accomplishing what I desire, and without succeeding in the matter for which I sent it. "For you will go out with joy and be led forth with peace; the mountains and the hills will break forth into shouts of joy before you, and all the trees of the field will clap their hands. "Instead of the thorn bush the cypress will come up, and instead of the nettle the myrtle will come up, and it will be a memorial to the LORD, for an everlasting sign which will not be cut off."
This was good for me to read last night. It reminded me that there is a purpose for the snow, and that the snow is accomplishing what it was sent for- to water the dry land that has been in drought for so many years now. And reminded me to be thankful for what it will produce later this year. I can now anticipate a wonderfully green and flowering spring, just in time for an April wedding... :-)

Monday, January 22, 2007

And yet again, More SNOW!!!

Aghhhhhhhh! More snow this weekend, we got another 4-6 inches. I am really starting to be bothered by all the snow. Don't get me wrong, all the moisture is nice and good for Colorado, but there is no where left to pile snow, we still have huge amounts of snow piled up from the storm three weeks ago( and two weeks ago, and last week...), and its going nowhere anytime soon. And now with it starting to melt there is ice everywhere. Its especially fun to walk down my steps in the morning, where the water has dripped off the roof all night, and the landlord didn't see fit to install a gutter in, and the roof ends halfway over the stairs (vertically). Yep- that's right. There is about two inches of ice all over my very narrow staircase! Fun... I have lived in Colorado all my life, but have never had winter blues like I have them now... I am so irritable and grumpy and lethargic. And those are not good things to be when you are trying to pull a wedding together to happen in 81 days... I am trying real hard to get it together. Please sunshine, come and stay a while...

Thursday, January 18, 2007

New Office Chair




I got this cool new chair for work! Its called a Balanceball Chair. It has been really comfortable so far. I just got it in the mail last night, so today is the first day I've used it. Its been the talk of the office all morning, and several coworkers have had to sit in it. :-) It's supposed to be good for your posture, and helps you burn calories throughout the day, because you are constantly in motion, keeping your balance on the ball. I now know how bad my posture was before, because you really do have to sit straight and tall to stay on the thing. But if my back quits hurting it will be well worth it.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Freezing

It has been below freezing the past two mornings. -11 yesterday morning when I got up and - 7 this morning. I had to turn my heater up three notches just to keep it at 68 degrees in the house! It is sooooo cold. Maybe G's next job could be somewhere warmer... like Hawaii. :-)

Friday, January 12, 2007

And More Snow...

It is snowing again. And very, very cold too. We are supposed to get three to nine more inches from now through Sunday. and our temps aren't supposed to get out of the teens for highs and flirt with zero for lows all weekend. I have lived in Colorado my whole life, and this is the first time I can honestly say, I am getting tired of the snow. And it's only January. February through April are usually our big snow months. Ugh!!! Just please snow- don't come the week of April 14th. I want a Spring Wedding- not a winter one...

Thursday, January 4, 2007

Snow, snow and More SNOW!!!!

I thought it snowed a lot last week, but over this last weekend we got at least three feet of snow!!! Happy New Year! We spent New Years Eve digging out. My fiance (G) and I had to dig my car out so we could get around. Digging out consisted of shoveling a four foot wide path halfway down the alley to the street- at three feet deep snow- you do the math. A LOT OF SNOW! We were so sore and are still recovering from it. We only made it 'til 10p on New Year's Eve before we crashed- we were so tired!!! So much for celebrating... and G had bought us Sparkling cider to celebrate with. It's still sitting in my fridge- unopened. We'll have to make up some reason to celebrate now so we can drink it!!! :-) And now this weekend we have to do some more shoveling to get his car out. Since I have a 4WD he's been driving it (and me :) around all week and we just left his car snowed in since the roads are not in the best of shape right now. Little cars are still getting stuck in the streets since the snow is now melting and there are big ruts and potholes in them. I took a lot of cool pics- just have to get them downloaded from my camera to my computer. (Saturday project) and then I'll figure out how to post them here.
Anyway- it's now 2007!! And I am only 100 days from my wedding day!!! I am excited but also nervous. There are so many things left to get done for the wedding, they seem like small details, but they pile up quickly. I hope we don't forget anything major. First things first- we still need to find a place to have our ceremony!!! We're working on it... (sigh)